Rev. 2009

When you are on the right track the wrong trains fall off. Don't be sadden by the lost of old friends. Be happy with the site of new and better ones. Life provides exactly what you need...both good and bad.

Saving Grace

I have began searching for my happy place again. I was posting some quotes that motivate me to move my spirit to the pinnacle it needs to be at. When I accepted mediocrity that was all I was receiving. Over the past week, I have had my ups and downs...much of the time more downs than ups. I am not forgetting the power that is located inside my spirit, I just overlook it for the temporary struggles that I'm facing. That king that sits on the inside of me has been waiting to grow and take it's rightful place on the throne of greatness. When I was following the path of failure I was surrounded by failure. When I woke up and realized that I must change my mindset and thought process and how that would change my surroundings and environment I saw things transforming. I laugh now because my new quote of life is "the spiritually wealthy is sometimes the ones who are financially broke." I am manifesting that spiritual wealth into a tangible material that will provide all the things that are necessary for growth and development. The world is changing around us, because it's changing within us.

Friends are the Best Enemies

Rodrigo Larrabure

When you are down and no one is around, who do you have? You
When you become successful and accomplished everything you imaginde, who did it? You
When T Mobile is about to cut off the phone again, who do you call? You
When you can't carry the dead weight anymore, who do I let go of in this struggle? You

Just a lonely soul in a overcrowded room.

New Year's Resolution

Hong Kong New Year's Eve

While everyone I know is out partying, I'm in the house writing my New Year's Resolution. I wrote out my New Year's Resolutions because I wanted to give myself the opportunity to set goals for the incoming year, and to see what things that are still works in progress. I am writing my resolutions because in the end I am the only one who can hold me to my journey.

• Create a business that I love
• Establish a strong monogamous relationship
• Create $500,000 in passive income
• Read 12 books by 2010 (1/month)
• Develop spirituality
• Be in the best shape of my life.
• Complete 5 public speaking engagements
• Contact family more often
• Write more (blog, book, experiences)
• Create better routines and habits

Power of Change

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CAVEH ZAHEDI | I Am a Sex Addict

Meeting new people has never been a problem, the problem starts when you move into a life of excess. You find that you are addicted to the new or in my case nu nu. You see how it hinders the growth of my being. In the past couple of months, I have faced my fears without the worries of “what if”. I am overcoming the challenges that life presents to me, because what I want is greater than the moment. The decisions to pursue growth and change are not easy but I feel 10 times better when I am accomplishing them.

I have made my choice and I am perusing the goals that were once unobtainable. However, I know that I cannot achieve those goals without discipline. In the past, I thought I could gain discipline from an outside source. From a person who was wiser and more focused. Even though that is one way, I found that when you face your fears and acknowledge them it makes you willing to change them. I know now that I can also achieve discipline by having the vision to see my goals and reaching for it without the fear of falling. When we accept that we are not perfect, but we can always be better. It gives me the motivation to work harder; cause that is the happiness on the inside manifests greatness on the outside.

I Miss You

I didn't realize how much I miss some of the great people that were in my life. Over time, we moved apart and now that I am creating my new successes I wish I could share it with them. However, the Most High will always bring back together those people who are meant to be together again. So I exercise my patience, cause I am being prepared for something great.

Time realeased...

This plan to design my dreams is taking a little time. I am embracing the word: Patience. I learn that if I have patience I will receive everything that I envision. As I am waiting, I wonder what this thought we call TIME is. Many of us have experienced more than a lifetime worth of pains and pleasures. I laugh because I am beginning to appreciate and love this time. While I can walk and interact with other people on this planet, I know that I am the product of individuality. This is a pleasure in being you. You live knowing that everyone must accept you for you, because you refuse to be someone else. However, I understand that everyone’s realities are different from mine. I am constantly in confrontations with people who want me to be like them. In every job I have ever had, my personality was the problem with the “superior.” My work ethics or abilities were always exceptional, but my unwillingness to submit was always a problem. The worst thing to do to a free mind is try to cage it. We are holding that person from being who they truly are on the inside. Greatness can come from freethinking, but we must nurture that way of life. (Let me get off my stoop) I just know that I have seen some of the best fall and the crazy people grow into trees that leaves blow in the breeze. As I sit here, eight floors from the Pen House Duplex I think about “Where is this journey going to lead me?” I have transformed lives in education, motivation, life lessons, and my own confessions. However, I still stand here wonder what am I going to do next? What is the billion-dollar idea that will change the world? Once again, I am learning about patience so I know I have to wait, but…

Hurricane Rains

DOP Images

My skin's texture keeps me from feeling the hate.
Looking at the dinner table with an empty plate.
Never forgetting, my fate is to dominate the planet.
Never taking every experience in life for granted.
Been under pressure and never panic.
Can't fall down cause I know you can’t stand it.
Sometimes I wonder if I could take it.
Stand strong while I stand across the room from the hatred.
Never let it make this clean shit look faded.
There is nothing they can say other than "He made it"

Diligence and persistence will define my existence!

Why?

Catherine Komp

Today, I received that phone call I never want to receive from anyone. Years ago, I taught in a middle school in one of the worst parts of America. My students lived in a third world country right inside the borders of country that feels it needs to "liberate" everyone else and enslave its own. In my first two years, I had six pregnancies, 2 killings, and numerous wars within my school. It is hard to be a great teacher when you know that your kids worry about eating that evening. In the midst of all those kids I had very few who were motivated and impacted by the power of education. Out of that small percentage, I receive a phone call from one of those kids crying hysterically. In the midst of the crying, I found out that one of my student's lost his mother to a vicious murder. I am attaching the link to the article if you would like to read more about the savage shit that occurs every day in America.

http://wjz.com/local/robber.stabbing.2.775742.html

I do not know what is wrong with this country. I would write more about this, but I cannot hold back the tears, so please send your condolences to the family and watch your back. Cause this country is toilet and its only due time before God flushes.

RIP Elizabeth Queensbury

(A moment of silence)

Our Heros

The Honorable El Hajj Malik El Shabazz

One of my closet friend dedicated this song to me today. I felt honored to be considered anything more than just another Black man in America. I see that my purpose on this planet is to leave the world better than I found it. All praises go to Brother Malcolm and the few positive male influences of my life, cause if it wasn't for their words and writings I could be America's worst nightmare...young, black and just don't give a f*ck!

Godly

Stacey S.

I don't fear no one but God
Since him and Allah exist in I
Don't worry about when the flesh dies
Even Jah and I see eye to eye
Cause the soul is seen in my eyes alive
I stay patiently waiting to sleep eternally
Until then I am helping Rome's burning
The body is fine tuned machinery
Learning how to drive is what god gave me
Blessed to exist in these warring countries
Cause that's the duality of human beings
We can bring peace in murdering everyone
No one learned from murdering God's son

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Confidence

Crissy LaVoz

I have been recently explaining my trials and tribulations of living on Mother Earth. I feel that it is time to give back to the very spirits that come in contact with this. Here is a little explanation into why men do what we do. The first thing that attracts me to any woman is CONFIDENCE. You can be very confident in yourself and not an asshole, which I have been at times myself. I enjoy the intrigue that comes when I watch you walk around the room. Noticing you, but never giving you all the attention. Just waiting for that eye contact to let you know "come here:)" That raw sex appeal is the most noticeable attribute you can have in any setting. When I find myself in the eye of the public I know that it is simply about acting "in the know." That means act as if you know what you are talking about...period. Ladies it's that simple. Always enjoy your experiences:) boomp3.com