Snow Bound

So we're locked in this room together
Snow outside, Hell inside feels better
My emotions made me Helter Skelter
Past problems made my heart welter
It's easier to blame someone else for this
Like it wasn't my lips that wanted the kiss
She seen my problems with ways to solve them
What I do? Just get up and run.
Run for the ones who can make me forget
Always high til I come back to the same shit
She wonders what wrong with my energy
Why I treat her like she was the enemy
When in reality, it was always me in infamy
I can blame the pains on the industry
The family problems that seem infinitely
I spent everything to get thru times
But always ended back at the white lines
I don't know if I will change
I don't know if I want to change
I don't know if I can let go of this pain

I do need to go
I do need to grow
Do I need some more!?

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Now playing: Stevie Wonder - I Don't Know Why

DeSiReS

I know that she misses my kisses.
Since I admit I miss all of my misses
This sickness makes me imagine
Sheets from silk, pillows made out satin
The action that made everything fantastic
The times I touched those lips made me slip
Into a deep daze or haze that could amaze
I know that I wasn't perfect when we met
But this taste of your beautiful sweet sweat
That I taste from your neck and chest
I couldn't pass this moment to lose myself
I don't know what else I could give
But inside your heart is where I live
I would give anything to be there with you
I must have you inside my soul
You're the warm place inside from the cold
I know that they said I would quit
I'm so into you you that I throw fits
Cause they don't know what we have
And there fear of loneliness make me laugh
In my essence I would give you a bath
Inside my soul forever is where it last
Inside my eyes you can see my pain
But inside you is the answer to keep sane
Karma Sutra could make this better
I put to your skin the finest feathers
I don't fret to let go in the moment
It's almost an omen for me to own it
I can't let you leave without knowing me
I can't let you see that you're my only need
You're the reasons that I can't past the point
I have to say that your saliva anoints my joints
To the position that make me want you more
in this poem I must pour everything that makes smile
I have to admit I haven't done this in a while
And the Tao tells me to embrace my beauty
I find my losing it in this cutie is a Godly duty
I should have not questioned if I could be this happy
I am all these things, at 2000% passionately
Why we should never quit makes me admit
That I can never live without this bliss

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Now playing: Bilal - All For Love

Why?

Some people are going to wonder why I am writing about the government, institutionalism, and various other topics. I will tell you now that I am truly a revolutionary at heart. I believe that the common person deserves to choose their lives and lifestyles. That there is no group of individuals should be able to rule over the vast majority. Please understand, I am not a person who believes that all humans are great people, but I do not believe that all people are fools. I am revamping my blog, because I know this is the time to start using my ability to educate people as a way of teaching others about the travesties that are being created both home and abroad. I will share the information that I have received as a way of showing others that it is time for us to organize and stand for what we believe in. FREEDOM!

I cannot play naive to the fact that the same country that was established on fight against taxation has now become the country to in debt all of its citizens. I despise the fact that the power that be have used a puppet Black man to push through the lies and deceit on to the people of this nation. I am an educated, influential, articulate individual who sees through the deception of color. Just because their skin may look like mine does not mean they play for my team, ask Clarence Thomas. It is time for people to began to wake up from the false reality of this America dream and begin to make the necessary CHANGE to make a place where our families and children can live at peace, or damn sure able to fight for it. I hope that you are prepared for the journey we will take together. May your higher self bless you in this fight!

The Week...ends

This was a very eventful weekend. I spent a lot of time indulging in some of favorite past times of recent ;-) The usual seems to consist of sipping wine, talking s#*t, and listening to good music. I have begun to frequent some places around my city and I have found that I am truly an introvert who has the ability to be an extrovert. If you are unfamiliar with introverts and extroverts its simple...introverts keep to theirselves, extroverts are outgoing. When I go out with my dudes, they usually are the center of attention. They seem to know everyone and willing to meet others, while I am more reserved and hesitant to let others enter my space. I find that I am only social when the other person initiates it. In the past I thought that my personality was meeting new people, but recently I have begun to truly try to find that quite spot and start working towards my goal. I am teetering between staying in for the winter and really facing the challenge of learning how to have "small talk" with people. Either way, I am starting to notice more about myself as the days are going on.

One of those days

My Justice

I don't usually complain about too much, but today is my son's 6th birthday and I haven't seen him since November 23, 2005. Today freakin sucks!!! I'm just trying to make it through the day without crying.
(See you soon baby boy)

Eyes Wide Shut

Photography by Swanky

This blog is an open door to release the soul. The craziest part is that the more I share, the more it attracts exactly what I ask. I know that we all desire something. From the woman who desires to be admired by a wandering eye. To the man who wants to be accepted by his so-called "friends." As the doors of change, begin to reflect around us. I welcome you to share in your DESIRES.

Honest Question

How do you become more selfless when you have spent your life being selfish?

RFID chip (revisited)

RFID Chip Enhanced

Please read about the Radio Frequency Identification Chip...
(click words or pic)

Freebie

Hotep for Change!

The Falling Empire

I am at wits end with the United States government. I am one of the few people in this country that seems to know that our government are raping our communities through taxes, police brutality, and economic inequalities. Now I sit here as the United States government tells me that I should be willing to pay for the bailout of companies that have robbed my family and friends of their wealth. I feel no remorse in saying that I am planning the great escape. I am taking suggestions on places to live. This falling empire will not take me down with it!

American Dreamin

1000and1words

After watching the President of the United State gives a 15 min. speech about the state of the economy. I remind you they are talking about the collapse of America, and he finds only 15 minutes of his time as valuable enough for us. If there is a such an urgency about the economy that John McCain must suspend his flustering campaign. I wonder why I am still here working to stay above water, while America seems to be sinking by the hands of the world's biggest goons. I see the end of the Just Over Broke Era is here.

Free Thinkers Introductions

Banksy

Gotta support independent minds...Introducing: Banksy

Banksy is the pseudonym of a well-known English graffiti artist from Bristol. His artwork is often political and/or humorous in nature. His street art, which combines graffiti with a distinctive stencilling technique, has appeared in London and in cities around the world. Despite much speculation, Banksy's true identity remains unknown. Simon Hattenstone from Guardian Unlimited is one of the very few people to have interviewed him face-to-face. Hattenstone describes him as "a cross of Jimmy Nail and British rapper Mike Skinner" and "a 28 year old male who showed up wearing jeans and a t-shirt with a silver tooth, silver chain, and one silver earring".

Check him out!

Support Independence

I love the support from all the readers of my page...feel free to share your perspectives and/or thoughts. We can only heal and change the world as one. The need for that encouraging word or thought could change the life decisions of one person. There is no way to change the world unless there is someone to tell you to keep going. I hope that with me sharing my world, it helps to make yours better. I know I cannot manifest greatness alone! Drop a comments, questions, or supportive words. All are welcomed!

Happy Time

After the week I have had I need a break. It's happy time!

Focus of the Week: Actualization

Nydie Charles

In my search to improve my surroundings and existence I have begun to focus my energy on the positive things that surround me. When times seemed like they wouldn't get any better I had taken a moment and read "The Secret" to my success. I realize that I was using The Secret even when I wasn't consciously thinking about it. Now that I have seen how my actions, thoughts and mindset have created the reality that I keep seeing. I have applied all those secrets to my life and now I am actualizing my successes. So I am actualizing:

meditation
positivity
diligence
wealth
emotional control
beauty
strength
resilience
persistence
acceptance

It's a celebration...

courtesy of the Kaoseffect

It's a celebration...old doors close, new doors open.
Resentment is old, perseverance and dedication is the new Black:)

I'm talking to you

Back to Work

Recently, I was in a very toxic situation with someone I felt I could trust. I asked God for some light in the dark hole I kept digging. Therefore, one day without my consideration or thoughts, the light showed up. It showed itself in the form of letting the other person loose self-control and showing their true identity, so much, that I could not do anything but accept their character. Even though in my heart I wanted to save them from themselves, that is not my responsibility or place. Therefore, I was given the answer to my problem, even though it was not exactly how I wanted it. Even though I felt, I did everything in my power to be honest and upfront. Just so you understand I will speak about a situation briefly... (You know what)...I am not going to say anything about it. God ended it for a reason and I will not express any negative energy, I am finally at peace. I wish them the best and I will keep reaching for the top...

Searching

Jewelz

This was a great weekend! I'm working hard...still searching for the blessing! (Or maybe I already have it and just don't know?)

Life Instructions

Here is something to work on everyday.

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Gnarls Barkley (Ceelo Green and Danger Mouse)

My first endorsement: Gnarls Barkley "Odd Couple"...greatest album of 2008. Can't put it down for the fifth time. :)