Utopia

We don't stop what we enjoy, until we enjoy something else more.

FITS

Why stay with him if they don't make you feel like this?

Just reflecting...memories of bliss
LIPS...gliss
Kiss...bliss
Hips...thick
Why...this

Just Restart

I share the art that helps me thru the challenges of life. Hope they do the same for you.

The Journey of Love

Too many times I’ve been wrong
I guess being right takes too long
I’m done waiting, theres nothing left to do
But give all I have to you

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Now playing: Drake - - Find Your Love

Surviving

When I left I thought thinks would change
I knew that if my thoughts were rearranged
Then I could achieve the dreams I frame
Instead I'm still falling part while I maintain
Is it the relationship that I CANT leave
Is it the fact that this is still not my true belief
Made decisions and now I have to live with them
Disconnected from the world, connect with children
Maybe it's because we both never want to listen
My autobiography is the motivation for fiction
Thought if I conquer more women then I was a man
Instead I'm still a slave to every memory I hold of them
I wish that I could change all this I have done
But when you subtract one from one; you have none
So I go on. Proud of everything I have become
The professor of all the actions I have done.

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Now playing: Miike Snow - Silvia

Clueless Observer

Work to Change
Train my brain
Learn the Game
Find ways to Refrain
Pick someone to Blame
Try to Stay Sane
Cry out all the Pain
Meditate to Abstain
Pick a new aim
Do it all Again

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Now playing: KiD CuDi - In My Dreams (Cudder Anthem)

Journey Man

We are at the road now.
On that way out the A town
Can't stay in the same place
Can't fall into that same chase
I face the goal with heads up
Can't fall back, gotta catch up
3pm and it's time to ride out
Up north trip, no more 95 south
I'm on my way up
It's time to stay up
Morning wake ups
Dreams make us
So I'm making my difference
God on the inside, see I listen
Guess that my inner wishing
Or should I say intuition

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Now playing: Mos Def & dj honda - Travellin' Man(original version)

Scared

"She said she loved me/I ran away/ Don't say you love me/I'll run away..."

- Me'shell NdegeOcello

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Now playing: Me'Shell NdegeOcello - Slaughter

Growing Up

Men are anxious to improve their circumstances, but are unwilling to improve themselves.

- James Allen

I know that if I want my life to improve I must first change myself. I'm bless to have the ambition and drive to want more for myself, because who knows where I would be if I ever settled for less. WE WILL NEVER KNOW

New Year's Resolution

Hong Kong New Year's Eve

While everyone I know is out partying, I'm in the house writing my New Year's Resolution. I wrote out my New Year's Resolutions because I wanted to give myself the opportunity to set goals for the incoming year, and to see what things that are still works in progress. I am writing my resolutions because in the end I am the only one who can hold me to my journey.

• Create a business that I love
• Establish a strong monogamous relationship
• Create $500,000 in passive income
• Read 12 books by 2010 (1/month)
• Develop spirituality
• Be in the best shape of my life.
• Complete 5 public speaking engagements
• Contact family more often
• Write more (blog, book, experiences)
• Create better routines and habits

The Desire to Change

Eminem

In the past couple of days, I am reflecting on my past year and my search for change. I feel that I am working towards the peace to ease my spirit. However, things around me have increasingly irritated me, and I know that the problem lies within me. I know that I am capable of having a peaceful life. Yesterday, I began writing my New Year’s Resolutions, and I know if they are, anything compared to last year's resolution I should have a great year ahead of me. There has to be a reason behind theses internal conflicts...just gotta keep searching.

"Under no circumstances should you lose hope. Hopelessness is a real cause of failure. Remember, you can overcome any problem. Be calm, even when the external environment is confused or complicated; it will have little effect if your mind is at peace. "

- Dalai Lama

Power of Change

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CAVEH ZAHEDI | I Am a Sex Addict

Meeting new people has never been a problem, the problem starts when you move into a life of excess. You find that you are addicted to the new or in my case nu nu. You see how it hinders the growth of my being. In the past couple of months, I have faced my fears without the worries of “what if”. I am overcoming the challenges that life presents to me, because what I want is greater than the moment. The decisions to pursue growth and change are not easy but I feel 10 times better when I am accomplishing them.

I have made my choice and I am perusing the goals that were once unobtainable. However, I know that I cannot achieve those goals without discipline. In the past, I thought I could gain discipline from an outside source. From a person who was wiser and more focused. Even though that is one way, I found that when you face your fears and acknowledge them it makes you willing to change them. I know now that I can also achieve discipline by having the vision to see my goals and reaching for it without the fear of falling. When we accept that we are not perfect, but we can always be better. It gives me the motivation to work harder; cause that is the happiness on the inside manifests greatness on the outside.

Growing Pains

Champ MC

When you know that you are making choices to make life better, it can be a very difficult battle. You want to spend time with someone, but you know it may be misleading so you sacrifice the time. If you are a sexual person, you have to step back cause every heartbroken creates an enemy.

I know that if I change those habits that have created the "monster" that I do not want in the closet anymore; I have to make the difficult decisions. I am making them, so you have to give a little time to appreciate the "better" person I am becoming. Consistency leads to stability.

Blink

If you want to change someone...start with yourself!

First move

Tomorrow is the beginning of my routine. I have to create new habits, so the first one is to write out my day. Following each step in my plan, so that I can look at how small things conquer those BIG things.

The Week...ends

This was a very eventful weekend. I spent a lot of time indulging in some of favorite past times of recent ;-) The usual seems to consist of sipping wine, talking s#*t, and listening to good music. I have begun to frequent some places around my city and I have found that I am truly an introvert who has the ability to be an extrovert. If you are unfamiliar with introverts and extroverts its simple...introverts keep to theirselves, extroverts are outgoing. When I go out with my dudes, they usually are the center of attention. They seem to know everyone and willing to meet others, while I am more reserved and hesitant to let others enter my space. I find that I am only social when the other person initiates it. In the past I thought that my personality was meeting new people, but recently I have begun to truly try to find that quite spot and start working towards my goal. I am teetering between staying in for the winter and really facing the challenge of learning how to have "small talk" with people. Either way, I am starting to notice more about myself as the days are going on.