Utopia

We don't stop what we enjoy, until we enjoy something else more.

The Desire to Change

Eminem

In the past couple of days, I am reflecting on my past year and my search for change. I feel that I am working towards the peace to ease my spirit. However, things around me have increasingly irritated me, and I know that the problem lies within me. I know that I am capable of having a peaceful life. Yesterday, I began writing my New Year’s Resolutions, and I know if they are, anything compared to last year's resolution I should have a great year ahead of me. There has to be a reason behind theses internal conflicts...just gotta keep searching.

"Under no circumstances should you lose hope. Hopelessness is a real cause of failure. Remember, you can overcome any problem. Be calm, even when the external environment is confused or complicated; it will have little effect if your mind is at peace. "

- Dalai Lama

[Preface] My Life Story...

This has been the greatest struggle in my life. I have cheated on every relationship I have ever been in. I am a product of my failures and I hope that my apologies could fix the mistakes I have made in my past.

My daddy made no excuse
I believe my lies are truth
Why won't you eat what you are fed
Cause when I touch myself I think of only you
And when I touch someone else

No one is faithful I am weak
I'll go astray
Forgive me for my ways

I hear voices and I can't stand to be alone
'Cause emptiness is all I have ever known
Soiled by my lust I feel no shame
No longer forsaken when they call my name
Beautiful angels come to my bed
I am satisfied on their flesh I have fed

No one is faithful I am weak
I'll go astray
Forgive me for my ways

My Art

Will Springfield

My poetry has crystallized the exquisite thoughts of a spiritual man who searches for the kindled flame that was douse for a year, and seems to twinkle only on lonely nights I spend reciting my past mistakes, wishing that I could correct those imperfections

See, I know that my inability to really relate to the struggles of a woman have reflected through my illusion to be masculine, but shit I’m a Pisces “I’m already indecisive.”

That’s why I worded this precisely to let you know that every apology is genuinely a part of me coping a plea in hopes that we can resolve my pass problems.

See I attempt to visually show you how my soul feels.

I would draw yesterday with the details of the perfect moments we steal.

Coating your canvas with the blues, reds, and violets we wanted.

Wanting to taste the picture I’ve created daunts me.

For minutes, hours, and days I would pace it, at times even pray over it and dream of grabbing the warmth of your insides.

In the oceans of your soul my spirits could capsize and I would know that everything is alright.

My canvas has displayed a woman who has become worthy of being sacred.

The worlds could have collided and we are the only ones to make it.

Now you and I are alone, which is perfect

Definition

Lupe Fiasco

We create our realities...

Self Worth

What is the value of happiness...ask one of them.

Ironic

DOP Images

I am sitting here sharing the intimate parts of my spiritual growth and I seem to keep receiving comments about a recent post equating sports with dating. At first, I was gleeful about the newfound interest in my life’s perspectives and evolution. However, I began to realize that people were more responsive to me talking about the power of the game. For years, I was an avid student of the Art of Seduction. I would calculate every phone call I made, every good morning message I sent, and even every time I decide not to call. (So that it would develop a dependency about the next moment, we spoke.) I knew that people are attracted to the things they cannot have when they want. It is the pursuit of instant gratification that has people in trouble. All those moves were ways to create interest and desire into the world I was creating. I wrote the post to let everyone know how the game works, so I stopped and read the comments one more time, realizing I might as well show you a glance into the world you should be glad you are not a willing participant in. First, the most important rule is to know that environment dictates the introduction. You do not approach the woman at Wal-Mart the same way you approach a woman at Magic City. It all depends on where we meet. If I meet you in a club then you will get the club introduction...a complement on your shoes, a seductive glance, or a blatant "that dress is wearing you well" comment. One of the three is always the starter conversation. I have to say that I am always honest with my complements, because more than likely I do not remember what I said after I met you anyways. I will probably need a play back so that I could remember what we said anyways. I am not one for one-night stands so it is rarely that I leave the club with someone. Not because I do not want to leave with her, but because she may have an "undercover" friend that she decides to have fun with in her spare time and I am not one to pick up any extra baggage, especially not the stuff you can cure. ;0 Secondly, I know that honestly is the best policy, so if there is nothing for me to be honest about, then there is any reason to have that conversation. However, there have been nights when a bottle of Riesling and a swisher sweet will turn me into a beast. (Completely different post) As a person who considers everything, you have to learn how to read body language and act as if you know nothing. The ignorance of the whole situation makes it work better. When the other person thinks you are naive then they are more willing to accept the seduction you are inflicting on them. This is only the introduction into the past…

Searching

Jewelz

This was a great weekend! I'm working hard...still searching for the blessing! (Or maybe I already have it and just don't know?)

Life Instructions

Here is something to work on everyday.

Let's Do It

Barack Obama for President

Read the nonsense that McCain has been pushing. My Obama endorsement is here!!! I will suggest that everyone see Zeitgeist before you fall head over heels for any candidates. I love the hypocrisy of America. They will have to deal with a black man running this country...I love it!

I LOVE IT...

Erykah Badu

The Most Beautiful Woman on the planet: A Strong Black Woman:)

RIP Isaac Hayes

RIP Isaac Lee Hayes
(August 20, 1942 – August 10, 2008)

I had to recognize an ICON in music.

Blink

This weekend I'm in the wind...

...is like Sports

Dwight Howard

I was recently talking to one of my friends about how dating is like sports and they found this philosophy to be very interesting. We were discussing how when you date someone it works similar to sports. (For the sake of conversation I'll use basketball to explain the analogies). First when you meet some you are putting them in training camp. Training camp consist of you asking a series of questions to determine their capabilities, acceptance of their teammates, and a physical/mental evaluation. You should always evaluate them because you want to know how they will play in your "system". If they're lucky enough to make it through training camp and you want to bring them into your team, you must draft them. Drafting gives them the ability to choose if they want to play for your squad. Some other teams will offer things such as recognition, money, and other amenities. Once they're involved you put them on a 10 day contract to still reconsider if you want to keep this player. (In 80% of my drafts, I drop players at this point) Now this is the part where you test them on their skills and abilities. You may go out and see if they offer to pay. You may ask them to find something to do, and rate their creativity. However you check out their skills, you do it your way. Now they have one of two options on your squad. You can bring them in and make them a starter (like most people do because they are excited by the newness). Now you have a young superstar who has not worked very much to get their position, so they may not appreciate the spot their placed in. My suggestion would be to put them on the bench. Even though you might be madly in love with their attributes and they may be the perfect person for you. You must still place them on the bench so that they appreciate every time they get playing time (or attention). While they are on the bench you spend some time developing the rest of the team. You may want to bring on some more young players. You may feel the need to reevaluate your veteran, who may have been declining for some time. Or you may simply just let time do its job...increase intrigue. Once you have brought this player into a position where they are gaining playing time, you must start out with a little bit of time. Walk them into the full schedule if that's what you are looking for. I choose to watch them play with their time allotted and see if they play harder to get more time or sit back and do nothing but waste time. As your team develops and grows you must make sure to never sacrifice your position as the General Manager, so that you can be on the same level as the player. If you are professional and good at your craft you can be an owner and recognized by all the great "players" of your time:) lol

boomp3.com

8/8/8

Gaurav Suri

Life comes with infinite possibilities.

Whatitdo

Will Springfield

Love to share these good times with someone, but God hasn't allowed that yet.
Learning patience...definitely a virtue.

Freebie

DEENA JONEZZ

Enjoy!

Blink

Celebrate your accomplishments. Happiness is everything:)

The Age of Enlightenment

It is when we are left alone to THINK with a clear and unclouded mind that we create some of the most beautiful things. I have recently decided to transform my life. The first habit I changed was my surroundings. Instead of being frustrated or angry with the people I spent time with, I decide to change my energy. Everyday, since the collapse of one of my friendships, I have spent time thinking about the importance of self reliance and self sufficiency. Why keep people who don’t bring out the best in you? Why be scared of the power that you have inside? What could you accomplish when you have nothing or no one? And the answer to these questions is “everything your heart and mind could imagine.” There were individuals who were draining the enjoyment of life out of me and I was too damn scared to rid myself of them. So when I couldn't make the decision for myself, Allah made it for me! In the past, I would have replaced that emptiness with drugs or women. Honestly…way more women than drugs. This time I decide to step back and focus. Focus on my goal versus on other distractions. And I have to honestly say that I feel better than I have ever felt before. At times, I’ve struggled to find that power that pushes me ahead. I woke up this morning...thinking of the new opportunity that is ahead of me. There has been a beautiful silver lining emerging from the shadow. I realize now that I have the strength, persistence, and diligence to change the world. Last week, I was asked to educate, influence, and enlighten adults. This is the first time in a while I will be teach adults how to be better. I’m embracing all of the strength and beauty that is coming from within, because if it doesn’t come from within, then I will be without!

Positive thinking creates positive things!

Blink

Never forget that when one door closes, another one opens...Welcome yourself in!