Surviving

When I left I thought thinks would change
I knew that if my thoughts were rearranged
Then I could achieve the dreams I frame
Instead I'm still falling part while I maintain
Is it the relationship that I CANT leave
Is it the fact that this is still not my true belief
Made decisions and now I have to live with them
Disconnected from the world, connect with children
Maybe it's because we both never want to listen
My autobiography is the motivation for fiction
Thought if I conquer more women then I was a man
Instead I'm still a slave to every memory I hold of them
I wish that I could change all this I have done
But when you subtract one from one; you have none
So I go on. Proud of everything I have become
The professor of all the actions I have done.

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Now playing: Miike Snow - Silvia

Living outside the Box

I know there have been many times when I was my own worst enemy. Spent hours on end fearing that I wouldn't make it. I know that I shouldn't worry about making it, since everyone I knew was successful at failing. Why should I pursue the goal of being better when everything sucks right now. Then I learned that this feeling has sides of the same coin. So I decided to focus on the successes regardless of what the present conditions. You can go from living on the streets to a multimillionaire in the matter of years. All you need is discipline and persistence and you can accomplish it. Note to self: The hard part hasn't even start...Success is harder to maintain than obtain.

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Now playing: Gil Scott-Heron - Save The Children

The Desire to Change

Eminem

In the past couple of days, I am reflecting on my past year and my search for change. I feel that I am working towards the peace to ease my spirit. However, things around me have increasingly irritated me, and I know that the problem lies within me. I know that I am capable of having a peaceful life. Yesterday, I began writing my New Year’s Resolutions, and I know if they are, anything compared to last year's resolution I should have a great year ahead of me. There has to be a reason behind theses internal conflicts...just gotta keep searching.

"Under no circumstances should you lose hope. Hopelessness is a real cause of failure. Remember, you can overcome any problem. Be calm, even when the external environment is confused or complicated; it will have little effect if your mind is at peace. "

- Dalai Lama