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The transformation of a boy to a man. Thank you for writing our poem...

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Forget Me Not

Hey World,

I have not forgotten about you, I have spent the last several weeks really finding that solid ground during shaky times. I have seen the days accumulating more struggles, more dreams, and more faith. In the matter of days, there have been moments when I could have lost the only who love me unconditionally. Everything I has existed on the brink of self-destruction without anyone having to raise a hand. So now, I am sitting here writing my pros and cons list again. The pros of happiness versus the cons of failure, and I need to make that decision that will forever affect the two. Prayer and faith are the only things that could bring a strong man through weak times.

42 Things to Think About...

Here are the 42 principles of Ma'at. They are the principles in which Kemetic (Egyptian) people used as rules to govern themselves. I wonder at times what principles do people govern themselves with, and do they change as soon as things get rough. I know that I govern my spirit by my actions, and in this growth I will have my faith challenge...the key is to never loose it.

1. Not have I done wrong. (We choose our rights and wrongs. Just stay true to them.)
   
2. Not have I despoiled.
3. Not have I robbed.
4. Not have I slain men: twice.
   
5. Not have I defrauded the offerings.
6. Not have I diminished [oblations].
7. Not have I despoiled the things of the god.
8. Not have I spoken lies.
9. Not have I carried off food.
10. Not have I afflicted [any]
11. Not have I committed fornication.
12. Not have I made to weep.
13. Not have I eaten my heart.
14. Not have I transgressed.
15. Not have I acted deceitfully.
16. Not have I desolated ploughed lands.
17. Not have I been an eavesdropper.
18. Not have I set my mouth in motion [against any man].
19. Not have I raged except with a cause.
20. Not have I defiled the wife of a man.
21. Not have I defiled the husband of a woman.
22. Not have I polluted myself.
23. Not have I caused terror.
24. Not have I committed offense
25. Not have I inflamed myself with rage.
26. Not have I made deaf myself to the words of right and truth.
27. Not have I caused grief. (One of my greatest challenges)
    
28. Not have I acted insolently.
29. Not have I stirred up strife.
30. Not have I judged hastily.
31. Not have I been an eavesdropper.
32. Not have I multiplied my words upon words.
33. Not have I harmed, not have I done evil.
34. Not have I made curses of the king.
35. Not have I fouled water.
36. Not have I made haughty my voice.
37. Not have I have I cursed God. (Never...when you curse God, you curse yourself)
    
38. Not have I committed theft.
39. Not have I defrauded the offerings of the gods.
40. Not have I carried away offerings from the beatified ones.
41. Not have I carried off the food of the infant, not have I sinned against the god of the town.
42. Not have I slaughtered the cattle divine

Walking Papers Are Here

Nancy says it best "One day these boots are going to be walking all over you."
Learn the lesson before someone gives you the lesson you'll never forget.

This Bird (Revisited)

During a recent listening session, I truly started to appreciate this song. It has become on my personal favors. Even though I am not a Solange fan, I do find "This Bird" to be an overall great song. In the last couple of days, I am spending time thinking thru the Master Plan. Who knows what may happen when this bird starts to fly.

Once in a time

Where the girls feel like girls
And the world is painted
Cotton candy
Where the sweet lemonade
Of mcgregor street
Was the best the damn thing of the summer breeze
Your dad drives a foreign car
And your mama looks like a beauty queen
Now the sour bitter days
Of a colorless place
Seems to light up my nights somehow
And the music i play must be loud, loud, loud, loud, loud as can be
So i dont have to hear myself think
So i dont have to wake up from this dream
I dont wanna sing no single mama blues
Im not singin look at me i've been abused
O im honestly lost girl starin at you
So maybe ill put on my high heel shoes
And soar the night away
And soar the night away
But whatever i do

Im not gonna slow this bird down
I don't wanna look life in the eye
I'm not gonna fall face first in the spiral called a life
Im not in denial
Im not suicidal
Not an alcoholic
Im not out here whoring
So just shut the f**k up
This birds not slowing down
Once in a while
When the sun does its job
Lets the clouds take a nice day off
I can breeze through the day

And just run through night
Here injisted of those big blue eyes
Is this is life might run
On the evening of fourth july
So i got reason to fly

Im not gonna slow this bird down
I don't wanna look life in the eye
I don't wanna fall face first in the spiral called a life
Im not in denial
Im not suicidal
Not an alcoholic
Im not out here whoring
So just shut the f**k up
This birds not slowing down

Slowing dowwwwnnn
Slowing downnnnn
Slowing dowwwnnnn

Its not over yet
The song isnt over yet
Aint no birds
Gonna slow me down
Imma keep on rollin
And aint no birds gonna slow me down
Keep on rollin
And aint no birds
Gonna slow me down
Imma keep on rollin
And aint no birds gonna slow me down

The Week...ends

This was a very eventful weekend. I spent a lot of time indulging in some of favorite past times of recent ;-) The usual seems to consist of sipping wine, talking s#*t, and listening to good music. I have begun to frequent some places around my city and I have found that I am truly an introvert who has the ability to be an extrovert. If you are unfamiliar with introverts and extroverts its simple...introverts keep to theirselves, extroverts are outgoing. When I go out with my dudes, they usually are the center of attention. They seem to know everyone and willing to meet others, while I am more reserved and hesitant to let others enter my space. I find that I am only social when the other person initiates it. In the past I thought that my personality was meeting new people, but recently I have begun to truly try to find that quite spot and start working towards my goal. I am teetering between staying in for the winter and really facing the challenge of learning how to have "small talk" with people. Either way, I am starting to notice more about myself as the days are going on.

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People Watchin 101

Rats are called rats because they'll do anything to survive...

-Banksy

25th Hour

Model: Kristin Kelli

Last night I failed at my 30 day goal. Got lost in the moment and felt I had to own it, now I stand here listening to the omen. Sadly, I'm not sad that I didn't reach the goal completely. I learned a valuable lesson in this experience. I can have self control if I choose. I have taken this experience to push myself in other areas. (i.e. exercise, meditation, and focus). I loved all the people who were supportive of my push to be better. Old Struggles end...new ones begin

Blink

What doesn't kill me will only make me stronger. Hard times build character!

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Zzzzz

Mr. Reggie Noble

As I share these experience, you find that I am nothing more than a man. Not a man in the sense of male hood. I'm past the point in my life where I can be mistaken for a boy. The physical is youthful, but the soul has been here so many other times. A reflection of all the spirits that attract and depart, each taking a piece of my being. I know that being a man is based upon what I leave to the planet. I impact almost everything I come in touch with the same style and grace as Hancock...lol. She comes in...she remembers...she comes back...I leave. A repeated cycle that has seem to find a place with me. In due time I could break away from the chase. How can you when the next one could be the ONE? The nu nu could have you loose...and lost in the sauce. So I patiently watch and wait to see who will be the one...now.

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