I have not forgotten about you, I have spent the last several weeks really finding that solid ground during shaky times. I have seen the days accumulating more struggles, more dreams, and more faith. In the matter of days, there have been moments when I could have lost the only who love me unconditionally. Everything I has existed on the brink of self-destruction without anyone having to raise a hand. So now, I am sitting here writing my pros and cons list again. The pros of happiness versus the cons of failure, and I need to make that decision that will forever affect the two. Prayer and faith are the only things that could bring a strong man through weak times.