Tomorrow is the beginning of another chapter in my life. I am going to begin a journey in my life that I have not faced at any other part of my life.
The Journey:
Min 30 days/ 30 nights
There will be NO sex, drugs, alcohol.
There will be: Meditation, exercising, focusing, goal setting,
I must write throughout the entire process to see what I am facing and dealing with as a travel to my heightened mind.
Today I guess I could explain in a poem:
I have made mistakes; no where close to perfect.
But why do I sit on this island deserted, again.
I stand my position so that I could place my favorite stake
Watching out for the yin to my yang; no give and take.
I must understand that this is best
Don’t stress; that’s useless in this existence,
I should have read it in the pretence of my cerebral cortex
In 1994 I introduced to my favorite drug
Outweighed the thug love and the dodging the black slugs
I was happy to feel these presences in essence
Thought I was the wealthiest amongst the peasants
(Hold on, do you understand that line, this was my thinking most of the time)
I walked the fine line between two dimes at a time.
Thinking nunu had me so subdued,
I ended up on an island on life’s cruse
I would be patient to hold it, console it,
Even foolish enough to think I controlled it
(Hey it’s me again) but I don’t listen to my conscience
Ego told me he was on some nonsense (he’s too damn honest)
I thought I was better man because I had better women
Swimming in the ocean of them, lost and drowning
Not knowing that I was going down when she tasted her on him
30 days to make memories, history… not forgotten
Just take some time to know that I could stop it. (Honest)
The Time to start is now!!! ENLIGHTENMENT*
