I redirected my energy more focused on my "new" relationship and goals that I set for myself this year. As I am spending more time to work on my dreams, I find that I have left some of the old people and habits I use to love. The mixture of long nights of drinking, days of smoking, and the people to fulfill the emptiness use to hide all the "doubts". I am sitting here in front of my computer on rainy night thinking about how much I have grown and how much I need to keep growing. Can't wait til I see the greatness come from within...but damn the ride to the top is hard and long. Gotta preserver!