Square Dancer

I never knew that when I wrote this blog it would be an opportunity to change me. Reading the words of my past coming back to rearrange me. Looking in the mirror has been like moving in with a stranger. Trying to find peace in the eyes of the kid in the manger. Throat hurt like I went on a date with the strangler. Some people are gonna think I'm weird, I guess I'm not writing for all of you over there. It appears that in the middle of lack of discipline was the lesson to be learned. The wise words were written before these books was burned. These are not just random, these are the moments of a mishandling, panhandling Sandman. I guess my new occupation hasn't paid off, so back to reevaluating the cost. Self employed version of someone to boss. Rolling down the road in hopes to build no moss. When I find it, no need to floss, just a moment to talk about how I was taught. Middle class phantom trying to survive off the famine.

Timeless Thoughts

So I have to lose everything to gain it all...Peace to my past friends...Greetings to the new ones.

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Fantasy

Chavon Staten

Her elegance and excellence made me crave her presence
She was the best student to my life long lessons
The fact that she was all that I could imagine
Pure sugar to all these saccharine additives
When we met it was long nights of talking on the phone
My addiction to the sound of her tone made me zone
To a place where I could taste every part of her figure
She could be my "B"...and I her "Jigga"
I figure that since we spent nights on cloud 9
With a bottle of wine and a line from my rhymes
I could make everything refine, even divine
Makes everything better when I use to sweat her
Better yet sweat all over her....my girl, my world, my pearl,
My night unfurls with one more moment with her.

Just a thought...

Nooner

The beautiful Coretta Scott King

Caught a jewel today...
In a conversation with one of my closest friends, she explains to me that "all people want in their lives is to be loved and accepted." I pondered on that expression cause I am sitting here feeling disconnected from love and acceptance. Lately my attitude has been damn near erratic at times. One minute I want to be around someone, the next minute I could live on a destitute island with my IPod. I thought about the last time I felt love. I have to say it was when my son (which few people know the story about) was in my arms. I remember the last day I saw his eyes and kissed his face. The smile it brought when I held his perfect hands and laughed at his endless smile. When days were rough he was my peace and justice in a world of the insane. However, his moms decided to take him and run off into the dark. (I love how the legal system of America will take the mother's perspective regardless if it doesn't fit her character.) Since then I feel there is no need to love right now. Instead if I take the Jay Z philosophy of "keeping my both of my heads where they are suppose to be" then I will be "ok". So at this time, I take in the fact that anyone could do anything at anytime...and work til I find my justice and peace.