One of the few people in this world I can deal with right now has been going through a detox for the last 30 days. In her search for being better she over came some of the largest obstacles of her life right now. I sit here on the unofficial first day of my own detox and I can't help but look at the obstacles that stand here in front of me. The list of things I need to do seems to be constantly growing and if I don't start knocking down some of these wall, soon I will be enclosed in them. On top of my list is the pursuit to find out what I love to do in this world. I've taught, mentored, instructed, coached, praised, and raised numerous youth from around this country and every year there is still a void left in my life. I have seen some of my first students grow and develop into individuals who will lead their communities. Many of them seem to give praise to me, as if I really did something other than be brutally honest with them about the world in which they live in. However, even after years of doing that I still feel the need to grow upward.